Thursday, December 13, 2007

Now I am here.

I felt quite out of sorts all day, knowing that tonight I would pull the plug on two years of my blog. I’m not quite sure why; it’s not as if my past is actually gone. Rather, it has moved back from the realm of exaggerated confidences to the ether into the confines of my mind, which is where most people’s memories remain in the first place. Still, I think the time was right. In some ways I don’t even feel like the same person who started that bitter diary two years ago: that person was all sharp edges and peevish observations, and today’s Kate is generally a nicer, and probably more boring, person. I’m not sure if that’s because I am clearly more settled in life, and happier, or if it’s simply because I am so constantly befuddled these days from a lack of sleep that I no longer have the mental acuity to be mean.

Christ, who do I think I am fooling with my butter-wouldn’t-melt routine? It’s not like I was recently born again or something (although then I’d have an excuse to attend my local “mega-church,” and wouldn’t that be fun). I’m still the same anti-religion, conservative-bashing, anyone-in-my-general-vicinity-loathing gal I’ve always been; I’m just so tired and busy with baby drool these days that I have less time to write about it. With that in mind, I probably didn’t need to start this other blog, but I really wanted to have somewhere to keep writing if the mood struck – it just needed to be somewhere that the floral part of my persona wasn’t attached. In fact, if anyone comments on this blog, or links to it, it would be fab if you, too, could skip references to my old persona and just call me Kate. Not that you intended to read this site, or comment on it, or link to it, or anything like that, but, you know, if you did.

There. I feel much better. It wasn’t like cutting off a limb, after all.

8 comments:

David James said...

First!

I'm looking forward to the new blog. I totally here what you're saying about keeping up the blog and how it evolves over time. It seems like everything changes around the 2-year mark, and it just becomes this albatross and I ask myself "why the hell am I still ranting about my boss and obsessing over Scarlett Johansson?" Well, I understand the latter but you get my drift.

Write away, Kate, there are those of use that are looking forward to reading it (but no pressure to do so).

Mel said...

thanks for the link and thanks for letting me know where you landed. i saw an error msg on your old feed and thought you'd floated off into the ether.

i'm glad you're still blogging, and you know me - i'm all about kinder and gentler so i'm looking forward to reading.

Deborah said...

Hi Kate,

I just came to your blog through Mel Morris's.

I don't know anything about you but you're talking about change, and I'm all for that. It takes real character to forge ahead toward a new way of looking at people and situations and life. Cheers to you for embracing that change - so many people don't have the courage.

Looking forward to reading more.

Deborah

Anonymous said...

I have no clue as to who you were before so congrats and good luck on your new life & blog.

broady said...

Jeez, I can relate to "evolution thing" in a big way. I think that's why I'm having such a hard time posting to my blog lately... in some ways I feel quite an emotional distance from my early blogging, but feel strange about suddenly adjusting the "tone."

Anyways, I'm *very, very* glad that you did not disappear yourself. And please thank Mr. Kate for the change-of-address notice... will he guest blog??

Sherry said...

♫♪ My girlfriend's back.... hey la hey la...

jb said...

i was wondering where you went. Look forward to new blog

Pargolo said...

thank you for sending me the link to the new place; I'm looking forward to continuing to be one of your readers!